screaming infidelities

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, 
And sit alone and wonder, how you're making out.
And as for me I wish that I was anywhere, with anyone, making out.

I'm missing your laugh, 
How did it break?
And when did your eyes 
Begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you're pretending

I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
I am alone in my defeat

i feel betrayed, hurt, heart broken. 

how could you do this to me?

ugh, i loved you. so much.

i guess i fucked up. you somehow

always seem to blame everything

on me anyways. i tried, i tried so

hard with you. but i guess it was

not enough. i guess i'll never be

good enough for you and your

life. 

you say you care, but how could

you possibly care if you left me

feeling this way, again. you say

our timing is always off, but is 

it? i feel you're making excuses.

i wish you would just tell me the

truth.

but i guess this is a sign. a sign

that says we'll never work out.

and i've got to accept this, and 

move on. it may be difficult and

it may hurt, but it's the right thing.

just know that there's no going 

back now. my heart can't take 

this pain any longer. and i will

not let you in again. 

you made my life great and

fucking horrible at the same

time. i will miss you, but

'us' will never be again.

good bye, good ridden.

I NEED TO KNOW I MATTER